Facing a new year

Don't ask me why, but the thought of a new year makes me a little nervous, and honestly, a bit tired. I would say this is probably the first new year that I can think of that I didn't go into it saying, "This year will definitely be better than last!".  Perhaps that just means I had a great year this past year?  It definitely had it's few rough spots, but all in all I'd say we were very fortunate in 2011. After all, it brought us our first year with baby Pooper, and after all the drama of that pregnancy I still every day feel blessed that he's here and healthy.

I guess I think that this year is going to be one that is full of change, and change is always scary. Chances are my job situation will change, which will obviously be big. It also will be a big year for my father in law, who I adore, because he's on dialysis and awaiting a potential kidney transplant. Baby Pooper is on the cusp of turning 1, which means that he's no longer my wee baby (so now it's my turn to act like one . . . waaaahhhhh!). He's already starting to do more little kid things and less baby things, so I guess I can't fight it any longer. Poo.

Perhaps it's time to set a few New Years Resolutions:

1. I'm going to blog or write more often. Feel free not to read all of the blogs -- they're often mostly just interesting to me, I'd wager.
2. I'm not going to settle. When it comes time to make any changes professionally, I will know my worth and expect nothing less than what I deserve. And I am going to do my best not to just take a JOB, but to finally begin building my CAREER.
3. I'm going to do my very, absolute best to be a more relaxed, laid back person. Not sweat the small stuff, all that junk. I think I've made this one for quite a few years in a row, but I'm still at it, so here it is on the list yet again. Don't judge me -- no one said I had to get it done on a timeline (and if you don't like me in the meantime, no sweat. I understand. Just continue to stay away, because I can't promise when I'll be done. Bwah!)
4. I'm going to plan a GREAT trip. Not sure when we'll take it, but the planning will begin this year.

While the change ahead IS scary, I suppose I have no other choice than to face it with my head held high and my heart full of the love of all of my boys. I'm so very fortunate to have my life -- I will promise to not only remember that every day, but show those around me just how lucky I feel to have the life I have.

Here we go!